Next?

Today is the day that fulfills a commitment I made to the old HP. I'm in a thoughtful mood this morning, in awe of my keeping a promise made to He who showers me with so many blessings. As an alcoholic and drug addict, I have made and broken many promises to Him. Being a member of Every Thing Anonymous, ETA, has taught me not only to keep my promises but, also, to do the old HP's will to the best of my ability. This is not the first promise I made to Him and kept, nor is it the first time I have bent my own will to His will; just the most challenging - so far.

This commitment has lasted six months. For six months, one day at a time, I have been responsible. Me! An alcoholic and drug addict! I cannot believe that I have done (what I believe to be) His will, (on a daily basis no less!) continuously, for such a long period of time. I sure love the program ETA. By working and living the steps, I have been taught how to live happily in this world.

I often say that doing the next right thing does not always make a person feel warm and fuzzy and I am ticked off every time it doesn't. Today, I think that 'men and women do the next right thing essentially because they like the effect produced by obedience to the old HP. (Subject to change without notice.)

Of course, I'm now in something of a quandary. I don't know where to go from here. The old HP has not briefed me about any new mission, nor has He said anything about extending the current one. There is really no excuse for this lack of communication. We have all sorts of ways to notify people of current events and planning. We have the phone, snail mail, email, texting, He could come over and leave a note on my door, drop by for a visit; it's not like He didn't know this day was coming! I'm also pretty sure He is old enough to know Morse-code, too. It would take me a while to decipher, but I'd get there eventually. I mean, if He is a procrastinator (and boy do I understand procrastination!) He surely know about those places we all use who say, "When it absolutely, positively, no doubt about it, has to be there over night!"

I guess I'll just suit up and show up, salute Him and say "SnS reporting for duty, Sir! Any time You are ready, Sir!" If you happen to see the old HP, today or tomorrow, would you tell Him I'll be waiting in His office?

Have a good and sober day.