Song Day - Stop Draggin' My Heart Arround

Today's song is "Stop Draggin' My Heart Around" by Stevie Nicks and Don Henley.
*Some re-written songs are probably considered 'oldies' by now. If you don't recognize the song you can probably look it up on you-tube.

When I was in active addiction, I vowed to quit about a zillion times. I did, in fact, quit about a zillion times. But each time I stopped boozing and using, I couldn't stay stopped. How do you stop a disease, a living monster, that resides within you? I was a failure at quitting and you can't get much lower than that.

Once I got into recovery and began working the 12 steps of the recovery program ETA, I was able to maintain sobriety. This song reminds me of those days of internal, eternal, agony; the days where I didn't want to use and yet couldn't seem to live clean and sober. I remember the painful past because I don't ever want to repeat it.

This song reminds me of the arguments I had with myself when I tried to quit without the old HP or ETA. It is a dialog between the substance and the abuser (Italics). I color the substance's lines with an inflection of taunting and malevolence (evil).

Baby you come knocking on my front door
Same old line you used to use before
I said yeah, well, what am I supposed to do
I didn't know what I was getting into

So I've had a little trouble in town
Now I'm putting some demons down
Stop draggin' my...
Stop draggin' my...
Stop draggin' my heart around

It's hard to think about what I've wanted
It's hard to think about what I've lost
I do not have to do the big get even
I do not have to do anything at all

I know you really want to tell me good-bye
I know you really want to be your own girl

Baby you could never look me in the eye
Yeah you buckle with the weight of the words
Stop draggin' my...
Stop draggin' my...
Stop draggin' my heart around

There's things that run around loose in the world
Ain't got nothing better to do
Than make a meal of some bright eyed kid
I might need something to carry me through

You said you really want to tell me good-bye
You said you really want to be your own girl

Baby you can never look me in the eye
Yeah you'd buckle with the weight of the words
Stop draggin' my...
Stop draggin' my...
Stop draggin' my heart around

Stop draggin' my heart around

Have a good and sober day.